ReSuRfaCinG...

*Gasp*



Back from a break that was half choice, half necessity...



Regardless, it's difficult to begin from here, but I'll try my best and accept it in whatever shape it comes.



Important points of the past month:



1. Completion of Yoga Training (resulting in a successful acquisition of instructor certification :))

2. Thanksgiving trip to Santa Fe that was healing on tangible and intangible levels, helping me to realize how far I've strayed from myself and my heart

3. Return to So Cal with internal promises to tend to my mental and physical and emotional well being



No need to get into details here-- they will come up as needed. Only thing to say is that I am realizing consciously, and accepting, the difficulty that this move has presented to me and just how incongruous some of its features and rhythms are with that which makes me thrive. All that I have, with the best intentions, been trying to do to reshape it, to fill it, to enhance it...have perhaps worked to a degree, but more importantly they have only numbed me to my frustration, to the holes rather than serving as real sustenance. I am now resurfacing, reevaluating, and hoping to rebuild with integrity to who I am (needing constant reminding of who that person is). It feels a little like an identity crisis, albeit an unconscious one-- nothing with which I have come to identify myself has followed me here...no English teaching, no hiking, no "academic" community, real community to speak of-- I have just been feeling disconnected in this strange new world. Moving forward, and simultaneously coming back to the core-- that's what I'm now doing.